Starry Eyed

Scratch. Black. Ouch.

Walking starry eyed.
The feeling that everyone stares at you.. disgusted by you?
Thanks friend.
But maybe it is just you. Maybe they're not paying you any of their mind.
It's your imagination toying with you//
they can't help their curiosity.
So they stare.

Its the hurt that causes you not to forget.
Its contantly there, the pain.
It makes you feel ugly.
Unapreciated.
Can't look at the mirror- at this monster.
It's personal disgust. It's physical, mental.. crazy.

Just a matter of time when you can feel normal again.

Imagine..
Not able to see yourself anymore.
Not able to see anything anymore.
That is pain. It bottles curiosity.
Closes your sences.

But soon it will be over.
Soon you can stare back at them.
Soon you can be them..
while someone else, starry eyed, is frightened of themself.

--> Written about my starry left eye, the corneal abrasion, that kept me in pain for about two weeks. It wasn't very pleasant (lol), I missed 3 exams cuz I couldn't see straight and couldn't focus on anything that was bright.