Mood: Overjoyed!
The sun is out! The day is beautiful! What more does one need in life?
[ Yes I know it was only yesterday that I was tired, reckless, and losin my mind (lol).
But you'd be amazed what a good night's sleep can do!
Besides, I'm sure everyone has their bad days. Yesterday was definately mine].
So the source of my happiness is my volunteer work. I usually go after my 8 o'clock class in the morning..but I just couldn't get up @ 6:30 today. So I went directly from home to be there at 10am (I volunteer at a health care home). At this time I wait until the morning mass is over in the main lobby and then help the physiotherapist set up for some physio exercises that occur in a group setting. I must say there has been such a positive outcome of these group exercises! Elderly people come on wheel chairs, with their walkers, and even if they don't have any major physical problems (ofcourse to be involved in these exercises, a doctor's referal is needed). So the outcome has been very positive (since when we first started) of the amount of people that have begun to show up and the positive results that they are receiving (many people that have walkers have seen an improvement in weight bearing; their ability to stand up, and their muscles are getting stronger!)
As the physiotherapist was conducting the exercises (and of course I take mental notes..haha), I met a new member of the physio team. He's actually a recently graduated kinesiologist from York U. I was very excited to be working with him cuz I felt I could talk more easily with someone my own age. We assisted two patients (after the group exercises were over) who were more dependant on nursing care. It is just remarkable how much a persons life changes after a stroke or after a genetic illness. One of the patients, a brilliant man, one of Canada's greatest Doctor's.. he was close with Trudeau and John Paul II among the few known figures. Now, after stroke.. and bedridden, it is very difficult to communicate with him. Working with him, the positive feedback I received was from a firm grip of his hand- him not wanting to let go.
Many patients I meet are tough to understand when they are responsive because so often they mummble or rock, usually saying and communicating very little. Such was the case with a patient suffering from Huntington's Disease.
With one of the physio assistant's I have been assisting a patient with walking. The patient is very young..maybe 42.. who is in the late stages of Huntington's. Due to this, she is bedridden and because her muscles are constantly in motion, she has lost her sence of balance. When I first saw her I was shocked at how thin and how young she was. She is constantly burning calories because of the tremmbling and spasms she goes thorugh.
Earlier this year we began taking walks with her up and down the hallway; her small figure struggling with the steps she was taking. As we were walking, the phyio assistant would always talk to both me and her; about her illness, about her children. It is a very awkward situation to be in because it is difficult to interpret if the patient understands, if the patient minds.. or if she even wants to be walked with. The patient is a human being of course, but limited in her abilities to communicate. If she could talk what would she say? What would she want?
So today I told myself I wouldn't engage in a conversation that involved her illness, and her fragile state (it's kind of rude, don't u think? to be talking about someone when they're right there). Instead, I constantly focused on her steps, focused on her energy, and complemented her very often. Even the assistant noticed- we began telling the patient to straighten her back, straighten her legs, and appraised her when she did so. I honestly was so touched with how well she was doing. She was trying very hard, at her own slow tempo, to coordinate her steps and straighten her posture. We had to support her several times because she wobbled; but she was doing very well. In contrast, last week was the complete opposite. The patient could not walk straight, could not take her steps in sequence..right/left, right/left.. it was more right/right tummble/left. So you could imagine how happy it made me to see her doing so well. I told her we would be back again next week, at which she nodded her head!
After such success, I feel so rewarded! I think the whole physio team feels the progress everyone is making! I am so proud to be helping out in this way.
Take a step outside of yourself and realize the pain and problems other people are going though.
You'd be amazed at how health, which is usually ignored by us unless we are sick, is tremendously valued by these people.
Spreading the Love <3
Augie
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Life in a Plastic Bag
I carry him on my finger.
I slant and stretch out my boots-
yet I wear them everyday.
I pass by beauty, unmoved today.
Stoned, brain frozen, defeated.
[Interference] Please stop talking before I lose my sanity.
I feel the same things, see the same way...
like you.
Irrelevant though, a neutral reaction.
Take all these feelings and thoughts.. tie em up tight, put 'em in a plastic bag.. tie it to a brick and please let it sink in a body of water.
That's my life atm.
Looking for happier days.
I slant and stretch out my boots-
yet I wear them everyday.
I pass by beauty, unmoved today.
Stoned, brain frozen, defeated.
[Interference] Please stop talking before I lose my sanity.
I feel the same things, see the same way...
like you.
Irrelevant though, a neutral reaction.
Take all these feelings and thoughts.. tie em up tight, put 'em in a plastic bag.. tie it to a brick and please let it sink in a body of water.
That's my life atm.
Looking for happier days.
Friday, October 31, 2008
Happy Costume Day.. not for me :P
So first of all, Happy Halloween!
Second of all, booo my costume days are over.
I did attempt to make a costume earlier this month.. and it was going rather well except for a few exceptions..
1. my model form (that i was supposed to "sew" on) wasn't as easy to make as I thought
-the plan was to duct tape my body- done by the bf ofcourse ;)- and when it was removed, the tape would have le shape of my bod. It was going swell! except we ran out of duct tape when we got under le female chest area. lol. That, and when we took the tape off, my shorts ripped right down the mid arse! HA!
2. the fabric i wanted was soo expensive !
Oh yess, and 3. I had no sewing machine, all was to be done by hand.
Maybe this sounds like a bad idea now.. but trust me, at the time it sounded reasonable! I still intend to make myself a dress.. but I'll need a lot more time to do it! (**darn those youtube videos! they make it look soo easy!)
Aneways, so I wouldn't be me if I didn't have a Plan B. Thus, my choices of costume for Halloween 2008 are:
1. Wrap myself in a bed sheet in a toga-like manner and portray the roman/greek goddess I was originally supposed to be.
2. Wrap myself in toilet paper and go as a mummy LOL//
3. Make myself a "duct tape dress" and go as a... super hero.. very sexy truss me =).
If all else fails, have a good one!
Second of all, booo my costume days are over.
I did attempt to make a costume earlier this month.. and it was going rather well except for a few exceptions..
1. my model form (that i was supposed to "sew" on) wasn't as easy to make as I thought
-the plan was to duct tape my body- done by the bf ofcourse ;)- and when it was removed, the tape would have le shape of my bod. It was going swell! except we ran out of duct tape when we got under le female chest area. lol. That, and when we took the tape off, my shorts ripped right down the mid arse! HA!
2. the fabric i wanted was soo expensive !
Oh yess, and 3. I had no sewing machine, all was to be done by hand.
Maybe this sounds like a bad idea now.. but trust me, at the time it sounded reasonable! I still intend to make myself a dress.. but I'll need a lot more time to do it! (**darn those youtube videos! they make it look soo easy!)
Aneways, so I wouldn't be me if I didn't have a Plan B. Thus, my choices of costume for Halloween 2008 are:
1. Wrap myself in a bed sheet in a toga-like manner and portray the roman/greek goddess I was originally supposed to be.
2. Wrap myself in toilet paper and go as a mummy LOL//
3. Make myself a "duct tape dress" and go as a... super hero.. very sexy truss me =).
If all else fails, have a good one!
Update! Update! (As of October 32cnd.. sigh its November already)...
So this being an excellent but very cheap Halloween 2008, I didn't follow any of my Plan B's.
I did however create smtn different... with some help... a few pins, a mask from Dollarama (haha), an orange pashmina.. and my "out of season" leopard print dress =)
It's soo good to re-use and recycle!.. heck I'll wear that thing again sometime! (i loved it)
P.S - next year is definately gunna be all out!
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Feminist Ideals
He walks into the room, charm flying off his confident stance.
She doesn't look his way but it doesn't matter.
His presence throws her off, bugs her.
Maybe she just hates the male ego.
What is a smile but a friendly gesture?
What is a helping hand but an offer to make peace?
What is this entry but a few words...
to relieve this tension.
She doesn't look his way but it doesn't matter.
His presence throws her off, bugs her.
Maybe she just hates the male ego.
What is a smile but a friendly gesture?
What is a helping hand but an offer to make peace?
What is this entry but a few words...
to relieve this tension.
Feedback Inhibition
On the day of the first snowfall
it deemed upon her.
The flakes, not wholy solid, melted on her warm cheek.
She looked up at the sky
-the sun not visible, hidden by clouds of grey.
Has she forgotten? Has she sunk herself in 'this' life again?
It was only a season gone when she felt so free.
Now she is surrounded by books.
Knowledge thrown at her from all angles.
She lives at every instant to catch it all,
capture all the words and sentences thrown at her, full throttle.
The words not even her own..
killing her 'self' by depending on the sentences of other, experienced figures.
Isolates herself from the real world, she realizes.
Yet they keep throwing info, hitting her body with such force that she sinks in its capacity.
While she focuses on her individual needs, her own education, there are those that suffer, there are global issues that pass her by as irrelevant.
She knows she can do little without the education she is gaining now;
she can do little without the paperwork and title.
As that first flake to touch her skin transforms into a water droplet,
she too is transformed.
Rekindling her goals, she breakes away from the distractions, and makes her way.
She wants to be part of it all and not cut from it..
a recurring cycle like feedback inhibition.
it deemed upon her.
The flakes, not wholy solid, melted on her warm cheek.
She looked up at the sky
-the sun not visible, hidden by clouds of grey.
Has she forgotten? Has she sunk herself in 'this' life again?
It was only a season gone when she felt so free.
Now she is surrounded by books.
Knowledge thrown at her from all angles.
She lives at every instant to catch it all,
capture all the words and sentences thrown at her, full throttle.
The words not even her own..
killing her 'self' by depending on the sentences of other, experienced figures.
Isolates herself from the real world, she realizes.
Yet they keep throwing info, hitting her body with such force that she sinks in its capacity.
While she focuses on her individual needs, her own education, there are those that suffer, there are global issues that pass her by as irrelevant.
She knows she can do little without the education she is gaining now;
she can do little without the paperwork and title.
As that first flake to touch her skin transforms into a water droplet,
she too is transformed.
Rekindling her goals, she breakes away from the distractions, and makes her way.
She wants to be part of it all and not cut from it..
a recurring cycle like feedback inhibition.
Saturday, October 25, 2008
The Classics
During my spare time this week I've really gotten into watching some classic black and white (and not only) movies. I've never had the opportunity to watch these movies because 1. didn't have the "resources", 2. didn't have the need to do so, 3. i've been so focused on the future that I forgot about the past.
By resources, I mean an awesome website I discovered (well, my bf's fams discovered) that has every movie you can think of.. except HighSchool Musical3 (haha :P). Now the money which was put aside to purchase dvd's can be used to buy myself a berret (yes, a berret!). Hello awesome movie website! How much I love thee.
Number 3 is a tricky one to discuss. Yes, school has been on my mind a lot as of late which leads to my future. But another "future" factor, or "future" excuse- has been my focus on the new movies coming out soon. Ex. James Bond, Quantum of Solace Nov. 14- which looks sooo good! With all this limited excitement I forgot about those good ol' movies =(
Aneways, I just had had had to watch (in no particular order):
1. Casablanca (1942).. and I loved it! So smoky, smooth, and mysterious! About a love that is cursed by the war- and a husband that "comes back to life"- which ruins a new love that developed in his absence. A must see!
2. Sabrina (1955). Audrey Hepburn is adorable! I love her- such a collected, classy woman! the plot of the story is very good- also about love, or rather obsession.. and money! This movie ranks high in my fav romantic films (1. Notebook, 2. Pride and Prejudice, 3. Atonement**, 4. Sabrina)
**I just had to mention, Atonement, the movie is MUCH better than the book. I found the book a bit dull ( no offense to the author) lol- he didn't capture the 'love' as well as the movie did (one exception though is the author's description of the library love scene- THAT was very good-probably the best I've ever read).
3. The Birds (1960). Thriller, not really- Alfred Hitchock's Birds is a depiction of my life and your life, if 'the birds attacked. It's plot is slow and realistic- even scientifically reasonable lol. I liked it.
4. Jurassic Park (1995). Yes, for me this is a classic. I have not seen this movie up until now.. and WOW I am in love. Probably the best movie with precise (or rather correct) scientific explanations that are not thrown out of proportion. I would love to be that scientist working on that DNA sample! Aneways, the plot is exciting...
...unlike that of Jurassic Park III. I liked part III but to a certain extent. I thought Spielberg focused waayyy too much on the raptors being able to communicate- come on now, it was kinda cheesy the way the main character was trying to decipher what those dinosaurs were saying to eachother. I wonder if this is what his life's research led him to conclude: "lets just take the eggs" says Bob the Raptor, "no, lets eat the humans" says Steve the Raptor, "No, they look nice, I chewed on the other human- he didn't taste so good, I'm gunna take the eggs"... BAM! the raptors have feelings!- shit, is that a possible theme for Jurassic ParkIV? hope not.
5. Pretty Woman (199?3). A prostitute's dream come true! Damn that girl was lucky- she landed the Ace of Aces! shucks that Harrison Ford is a hunk! ..was a hunk, is a hunk.. was/is.. i dont know anymore (he looks ageless in Indiana Jones lol). I guess in a way they were both pretty women.. awwww *tear. True love.. but really? would you date a prostitute? This all seems kinda iffy. Aneways, thumbs up for the plot and idea-- which really shows us that anything is possible *insert Sarah Palin wink*.
By resources, I mean an awesome website I discovered (well, my bf's fams discovered) that has every movie you can think of.. except HighSchool Musical3 (haha :P). Now the money which was put aside to purchase dvd's can be used to buy myself a berret (yes, a berret!). Hello awesome movie website! How much I love thee.
Number 3 is a tricky one to discuss. Yes, school has been on my mind a lot as of late which leads to my future. But another "future" factor, or "future" excuse- has been my focus on the new movies coming out soon. Ex. James Bond, Quantum of Solace Nov. 14- which looks sooo good! With all this limited excitement I forgot about those good ol' movies =(
Aneways, I just had had had to watch (in no particular order):
1. Casablanca (1942).. and I loved it! So smoky, smooth, and mysterious! About a love that is cursed by the war- and a husband that "comes back to life"- which ruins a new love that developed in his absence. A must see!
2. Sabrina (1955). Audrey Hepburn is adorable! I love her- such a collected, classy woman! the plot of the story is very good- also about love, or rather obsession.. and money! This movie ranks high in my fav romantic films (1. Notebook, 2. Pride and Prejudice, 3. Atonement**, 4. Sabrina)
**I just had to mention, Atonement, the movie is MUCH better than the book. I found the book a bit dull ( no offense to the author) lol- he didn't capture the 'love' as well as the movie did (one exception though is the author's description of the library love scene- THAT was very good-probably the best I've ever read).
3. The Birds (1960). Thriller, not really- Alfred Hitchock's Birds is a depiction of my life and your life, if 'the birds attacked. It's plot is slow and realistic- even scientifically reasonable lol. I liked it.
4. Jurassic Park (1995). Yes, for me this is a classic. I have not seen this movie up until now.. and WOW I am in love. Probably the best movie with precise (or rather correct) scientific explanations that are not thrown out of proportion. I would love to be that scientist working on that DNA sample! Aneways, the plot is exciting...
...unlike that of Jurassic Park III. I liked part III but to a certain extent. I thought Spielberg focused waayyy too much on the raptors being able to communicate- come on now, it was kinda cheesy the way the main character was trying to decipher what those dinosaurs were saying to eachother. I wonder if this is what his life's research led him to conclude: "lets just take the eggs" says Bob the Raptor, "no, lets eat the humans" says Steve the Raptor, "No, they look nice, I chewed on the other human- he didn't taste so good, I'm gunna take the eggs"... BAM! the raptors have feelings!- shit, is that a possible theme for Jurassic ParkIV? hope not.
5. Pretty Woman (199?3). A prostitute's dream come true! Damn that girl was lucky- she landed the Ace of Aces! shucks that Harrison Ford is a hunk! ..was a hunk, is a hunk.. was/is.. i dont know anymore (he looks ageless in Indiana Jones lol). I guess in a way they were both pretty women.. awwww *tear. True love.. but really? would you date a prostitute? This all seems kinda iffy. Aneways, thumbs up for the plot and idea-- which really shows us that anything is possible *insert Sarah Palin wink*.
6. Romeo + Juliet (1996). *Starts to drool*.. Leeooo DiCaprio. Enough said.
Sunday, September 21, 2008
A Canadian Political Regime!
What is going on?!
Conservatives, Liberals, NDP, Green?
A quick review (as of Oct. 14, 08):
- A slightly larger minority government run by Mr. Harper.
*insert applause* ..two weeks into his term.. *insert bored, monotone face : *
- Sorry, Dion or as I like to call toi Monsieur Piu Piu- maybe nexx time around (but there won't be a nexx time.. such false hope (muahaha)).
-And importantly, congrats to the Greens who are gaining favour and more recognition in this ginormous country that is greener than blue. Literally.
Conservatives, Liberals, NDP, Green?
A quick review (as of Oct. 14, 08):
- A slightly larger minority government run by Mr. Harper.
*insert applause* ..two weeks into his term.. *insert bored, monotone face : *
- Sorry, Dion or as I like to call toi Monsieur Piu Piu- maybe nexx time around (but there won't be a nexx time.. such false hope (muahaha)).
-And importantly, congrats to the Greens who are gaining favour and more recognition in this ginormous country that is greener than blue. Literally.
Your Love is King- Sade
One of my favourite easy listening, smooth jazz songs:
Your love is king,crown you in my heart.
Your love is king,never need to part.
Your kisses ring,round and round and round my head.
Touching the very part of me.
It's making my soul sing.
Tearing the very heart of me.
I'm crying out for more.
Your love is king,crown you in my heart.
Your love is king.
You're the ruler of my heart.
Your kisses ring,round and round and round my head.
Touching the very part of me.
It's making my soul sing.
I'm crying out for more.
Your love is king.I'm coming up, I'm coming.
You're making me dance, inside.
Your love is king.
This is no blind faith
This is no sad and sorry dream.
This is no blind faith
Your love...your love is real...
gotta crown me with your heart,never, never need to part,touch me.
Never letting go,never letting go,never going to give it up.
I'm coming,you're making me dance...
Your love is king,crown you in my heart.
Your love is king,never need to part.
Your kisses ring,round and round and round my head.
Touching the very part of me.
It's making my soul sing.
Tearing the very heart of me.
I'm crying out for more.
Your love is king,crown you in my heart.
Your love is king.
You're the ruler of my heart.
Your kisses ring,round and round and round my head.
Touching the very part of me.
It's making my soul sing.
I'm crying out for more.
Your love is king.I'm coming up, I'm coming.
You're making me dance, inside.
Your love is king.
This is no blind faith
This is no sad and sorry dream.
This is no blind faith
Your love...your love is real...
gotta crown me with your heart,never, never need to part,touch me.
Never letting go,never letting go,never going to give it up.
I'm coming,you're making me dance...
Monday, September 8, 2008
He's Back..
and everything is complete.
Love is patient.
Love is kind.
Love is wise.
Love is honest.
I don't understand how jealousy can take over a person so rapidly, and how one can jump to conclusions so quickly.
Jealousy is difficult to contain, sure, but the beauty and risk of love is trust.
I have the satisfaction in knowing that what he speaks is true.
I was proved wrong so many times when we were still building our relationship.
It is sweet to blush and be concerned about a beau's contacts but WOW not to the extent of controling and spying on one's every move. It is meaningless, pointless, and a waste of time. An emotion not worth this much of my writing and thought.
But something to note, and something that ticked me off today was this false accusation.
Love conquers jealousy.
-I have to let it be known; get over urself,
Love, Augie
Love is patient.
Love is kind.
Love is wise.
Love is honest.
I don't understand how jealousy can take over a person so rapidly, and how one can jump to conclusions so quickly.
Jealousy is difficult to contain, sure, but the beauty and risk of love is trust.
I have the satisfaction in knowing that what he speaks is true.
I was proved wrong so many times when we were still building our relationship.
It is sweet to blush and be concerned about a beau's contacts but WOW not to the extent of controling and spying on one's every move. It is meaningless, pointless, and a waste of time. An emotion not worth this much of my writing and thought.
But something to note, and something that ticked me off today was this false accusation.
Love conquers jealousy.
-I have to let it be known; get over urself,
Love, Augie
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
Don't.. Wake Me Up When September Ends
First Day of school was awesome today!
In truth I only had one class which was a great start for my final year at Rye. My prof is freakin amazing! (I wouldn't be surprised if Rye had the best profs in T.O!) She transfered over from York U (boo! lol) and she has a down to earth (gangstah) feel.
Of course being overtly confident this year.. I spoke up n shared my Aussie experience with the class..oohh I'm on fiiree! (for now.. I'll update my status in a month haha!)
On a serious note, I fixed up all the problems I had with the schedule and it looks like a busy but flexible semester. I have one full day off and another day which only consists of a one hour class. This year is going to be insane. With the temptation of sweet procrastination during those days..
(I can not give in! I will not give in!)
..what does one do to resist? Something better.. volunteer work =) I'm in talks with a volunteer coordinator at one of the hospitals in the area. Hopefully all works well and the shadowing experience as a physiotherapist will work out (for that is what interests me atm).
My thesis project is working out well as well.. Although I haven't entered the lab environment (YET), I have a couple of meetings with my prof this week and next. It is soo exciting! But I know I will be emotionally drained when I actually perform my act in the laboratory lol. Maximum emotional rollercoaster this semester.. BUT that will not affect netn' cuz I plan to dance/drink my sorrows away (not to the extreme..but you know, go out more often). I'm on the hunt for a bar with a dance floor. Something in the likes of Jacksons at George in Sydney. Honestly, those were good times and although I understand the school year has started...
I DO NOT WANT TO LIVE TO WORK, I WANT TO WORK TO LIVE!!!
In truth I only had one class which was a great start for my final year at Rye. My prof is freakin amazing! (I wouldn't be surprised if Rye had the best profs in T.O!) She transfered over from York U (boo! lol) and she has a down to earth (gangstah) feel.
Of course being overtly confident this year.. I spoke up n shared my Aussie experience with the class..oohh I'm on fiiree! (for now.. I'll update my status in a month haha!)
On a serious note, I fixed up all the problems I had with the schedule and it looks like a busy but flexible semester. I have one full day off and another day which only consists of a one hour class. This year is going to be insane. With the temptation of sweet procrastination during those days..
(I can not give in! I will not give in!)
..what does one do to resist? Something better.. volunteer work =) I'm in talks with a volunteer coordinator at one of the hospitals in the area. Hopefully all works well and the shadowing experience as a physiotherapist will work out (for that is what interests me atm).
My thesis project is working out well as well.. Although I haven't entered the lab environment (YET), I have a couple of meetings with my prof this week and next. It is soo exciting! But I know I will be emotionally drained when I actually perform my act in the laboratory lol. Maximum emotional rollercoaster this semester.. BUT that will not affect netn' cuz I plan to dance/drink my sorrows away (not to the extreme..but you know, go out more often). I'm on the hunt for a bar with a dance floor. Something in the likes of Jacksons at George in Sydney. Honestly, those were good times and although I understand the school year has started...
I DO NOT WANT TO LIVE TO WORK, I WANT TO WORK TO LIVE!!!
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