For my Friend

Jerry. You were too nice to her, too focused on her needs.

[She stared you in the eyes, sitting across of you in the pizza parlour, that day. She waited for a response, a movement of any sort].

I know Jerry. Don't say anything. I know you wonder how. Don't speak, don't think for a second.

You never had much luck with women, admit it.
Always chose the beautiful, graceful, yet the most misleading.

[Deceit]

You fill their heads with your heart, your soul. Always the listener, the advice giver.
Don't do it Jerry.
Don't go soul deep too fast, don't listen so hard, don't talk so much.

Leave it alone. You like being the hero, I know. But when you save, it does you hurt.
In the end it's no good.

[Hear me out Jerry].

You could keep trying- but things will never change. Don't look back.
Tell her. Show her your disaproval.
You were her object; she used your passion, your humour, your love - to find herself.
She saw only herself in your eyes- so lost- she used you.
Replaced your confidence with her own.

[Selfless].

How could she?- You wonder. No, wrong question.
Why? -Yes. You let her. She walked all over you with her sorrows and confusion.

It was you.
You opened that hidden, dark chest in her mind.
You unlocked it with your "maybe's" and "what if's".
She explored (Something you were always scared to do).
Quite the advice giver now -Just realize.

She tested her options. Considered that boundary, that line,
she stepped over the threshold.
She found it. You led her by the hand while she did it.

[She's gay Jerry]

Accept it, now that you know. Accept it now.
You were her friend all this time. Even through the kisses that felt so real in your mind.
The words you both shared, those nights holding her in your arms.
Memories they are. Friends.

[Those eyes, that deep rich brown he always admired. Once over run with a shadow. Gone, no more. What a beautiful being she was now. Self fulfilled- he realized- true to herself.
He let her go.
Good bye my friend... I won't forget you. He kissed her on the cheek]

Don't worry Jerry. Don't lose your fire.
Search beyond the heart beat, beyond the desire.

Listen to the wind as you walk away, listen to the rhythm of your step.
One day 'she' will find you.
Wait for 'her'. Don't turn back.
The one meant for you will save you. 'She' will walk with you.