Expressions .xx♥

Uninspired

2011-02-06T14:15:00.004-05:00

She sits by the foot of her bed and steals this moment for herself
She thinks about the things she often chooses to ignore and has felt impartial to

Is this an addiction? Is it even a feeling or is it a need?
What has it turned into? and what is it that we need to do now?

Lost and uninspired.. Maybe.. too many questions left unanswered and left unexplained
This puzzle which is her current state is troubling, is losing her... she just needs time

When do you truly know?

2010-11-02T23:35:00.004-04:00

You never truly know something until you've experienced it; you never truly feel the depth of an emotion unless it has affected you directly. You can imagine and you can try to understand what it is like but that doesn't matter.

It doesn't matter because it won't come close to that raw feeling, that real experience, that shock and that anxiety of having to wait for time to heal the pain and bring things back to the way they were before.

Every so often I discover a truth, something that I know and have read about but never stopped to look at in perspective. I try to imagine such circumstances. I try to picture my life, as comfortable as it is now, come to a halt because of some occurrence that is larger than I am. Something governed by a greater power, whether it be a natural disaster or a political regime such as communism, fascism. Toronto had a small glimpse of chaos this summer during the G20 protests but that was like a small rain storm compared to frevelent storms occurring in different parts of the world on a daily basis. How ignorant are we to these things? How ignorant are we to the past, our personal histories and the lives of our ancestors who "fought for our freedom". We here that so often.. freedom. But is it?

Stories of my great grandparents re-surface here and then but it is my curious nature to dig deeper and find the truth. The textbooks don't always reflect the stories of all the people.. and our grandfolks are the ones with the real encounters. So history.. it is not just a boring subject. It is a reflection of who we are.. and only when it directly affects or defines us is when we start to appreciate its worth.

I guess my main point in terms of history is that although we can't live our lives rethinking or living by the past, we can not ignore it nor forget about it completely either.

..

2010-10-21T01:09:00.001-04:00

I am alive and I am loving it...

But when I die will I hate it?

*insert cheap laugh here

Reflect to Collect

2010-10-21T00:24:00.007-04:00

Like a pellet in the wind, she got swarmed up by this new way of life
Many a thing has changed, many a people have intertwined with her existence

Many thoughts stirred in her mind and many emotions stirred through her thoughts
New ideas have sparked a new potential within her and a feeling of rebirth entailed

Though more complex her world grows, she remains tied to the ground
Feelings of nostalgia have started to build within, for peace

She wishes to close her eyes and let her fingers replace her mind with the keyboard of a piano
But that time has not yet come in her life
She is not ready
She knows the path to feel a greater peace lies first in overcoming the chaos that surrounds her

Within a moment of looking at the instrument her heart breaks, her smile weakens and she is saddened
However, she waits, hides the feeling within her soul and occupies her mind to forget that such a thing ever existed

...

2010-08-25T04:58:00.002-04:00

In the long run the pessimist my be proven right, but the optimist has a better time on the trip.

-Daniel Reardon

Classic

2010-07-26T18:58:00.002-04:00

He says: You're no picnic, all right? You're a spoiled little brat, even, but under that, you're the most amazingly, astounding, wonderful girl, woman, that I've ever known...

She says: Hey, I...

He says: No, let me try and get this out. You're ama- I'm not an idiot, I know how the world works. I've got ten bucks in my pocket, I have no-nothing to offer you and I know that. I understand. But I'm too involved now. You jump, I jump remember? I can't turn away without knowing you'll be all right... That's all I want.

She says: Well, I'm fine... I'll be fine... really.

He says: Really? I don't think so. They've got you trapped. And you're gonna die if you don't break free. Maybe not right away because you're strong but... sooner or later that fire that I love about you... that fire's gonna burn out...

She says: It's not up to you to save me, you know.

He says: You're right... only you can do that.

All too familiar

2010-07-25T08:41:00.002-04:00

She sits in her car.

She purposefully parked behind the trees in a spot all too familiar to her.
She used to come here endlessly, almost every week when she worked just across the street.. but today, she's at a crossroad.
She observes ppl walking to and from the buildings, as she sits there quietly reflecting on current situations in her life.
She watches elderly couples, all familiar faces, pass her by.
Not much has changed since she's been away.
The same old man walks his dog. Much as he has every morning, he sits at the same spot, a ledge, infront of the old church.

Long behold the church!

She stares at its gothic exterior and colourful windows. Should she go in and listen to words and voices that she's all too familiar with? Will this really help her cope with her thoughts?
Guilt spreads across her and her troubles begin to aimlessly spin in her head.

Who is this person?

She gets out of the car. As much as she'd like to drive away, she's been sitting in there for far too long. Crossing the street, she joins the old man and his dog, all three of them listening to faint prayers being sung inside while observing the world passing by.

Strangers.

Sometime in the future, they won't be sitting there anymore.
Sometime in the future, the elderly couples she saw earlier will change and the familiar faces she recognizes now will disappear.
The buildings will stay, though, attached to them memories that will grow old and might fade away.
But maybe they will come back, very faint, as she drives by twenty years from now.
And maybe in that time there will be someone else sitting infront of that same church, observing these same old buildings, having the same thoughts filling them, that fill her head today.

Sent from my BlackBerry device on the Rogers Wireless Network

2010-07-09T22:38:00.001-04:00

BACK OFF

Did I ever really know?

2010-06-17T21:55:00.008-04:00

A breeze,

carries with it the strength and serenity of my memories,

releasing any presence of despair.

How long before this feeling fades?

How long before reality hits again?

Prolonging these moments,

the power is hard to possess.

Time will absorb what it wants

and won't give back what you're longing for.

Give me a chance to relive again.

Give me some peace with my own.

Go back, flash back, to that place

but this time...

I will open my eyes to the knowledge,

to the past of whats certainly there.

To the feeling of being emotionless-

I don't seem to mind, and you don't seem to care.
So meet me somewhere in the middle,

in the darkness where time won't catch up.

To the security of being lost in a distant place,

where morality and logic are mixed up.

This once, time won't be wasted
and I will never think to look back.
As what is thought will be said and done
and what is missed, time will lose track.

Fast Car- Tracy Chapman

2010-06-03T16:29:00.004-04:00

You got a fast car

But is it fast enough so we can fly away

We gotta make a decision

We leave tonight or live and die this way

I remember we were driving, driving in your car

The speed so fast I felt like I was drunk

City lights lay out before us

And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder

And I had a feeling that I belonged

And I had a feeling I could be someone, be someone, be someone

You got a fast car

And we go cruising to entertain ourselves

You still ain't got a job And I work in a market as a checkout girl

I know things will get better You'll find work and I'll get promoted

We'll move out of the shelter Buy a big house and live in the suburbs

Marilyn Monroe

2010-05-25T23:04:00.002-04:00

I believe that everything happens for a reason,
people change so that you can learn to let go,
things go wrong so you appreciate them when they're right,
you believe lies so you'll learn to trust noone but yourself,
and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.

This gets me Thinking

2010-05-14T20:11:00.008-04:00

So I had a friend read my short story about the car (titled Ghost Rider) and he too told me he interpreted it as very "hidden sexual" :S But what I meant to write was about my adventure and escape from the hectic city in my car ...

I think this kind of lowers the quality of my thoughts haha. I know I feel passionate about two things: cars and nature (how contradicting) so maybe this hidden sexual crap is of a subconscious nature.

Aneways, here's smtn hot I did today:

Halton Region Conservation Authority, ON

Hello May

2010-05-01T08:41:00.001-04:00

Hello May

I feel sexy but insecure around you here

Yes, May, you intoxicate me with your being

Your smile lights up my days
The green grass, flowers and beauty you spring amazes me

My mind thinks forward and plans ahead to include you

But thoughts and actions, they sometimes never coincide

*Sigh

The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo

2010-04-29T11:25:00.005-04:00

I just read the first of three novels by Stieg Larsson and I am very surprised at the plot, suspense, and how well the author carried the book from start to finish. I must admit that at the beginning the plot was slow moving but it quickly picked up pace. To my surprise the book had multiple climaxes and they were so well entwined in the story that while reading I couldn't resist putting the book down. I finished reading the book at 5am in the morning lol. Overall, 5 stars. It was very smart and again, very well written. It was also my first mystery/murder novel I've read and although the book did arise emotions of fear and anger in me, I was not as agitated by it because the main characters of the book had logical and rational thinking (not as dumbfounded as Bella Swan from Twilight.. barf).

I am currently picking up the second book, The Girl who played with fire. On a side note, I'm also reading a history book (written by Norman Davies).. the history of Poland but in ENGLISH! yes.. english!!! finally, something that I can understand and analyze thoroughly on my own. Don't get me wrong, I am fluent in Polish.. but the way the Polish language carries itself in such subjects is a snore! lol. Plus some words are difficult to interpret :P

Aneways, here is the trailer to the movie of the first of Larsson's books (it is in Swedish with english subtitles). A couple of friends strongly recommended me to watch it but I couldn't give in without reading the book first :)

Heart- Barracuda

2010-03-16T00:40:00.003-04:00

Dave Grohl

2010-03-15T21:58:00.000-04:00

..not ready to regret

2010-03-15T01:37:00.001-04:00

If I could hold on I would
Not everything I do, I should
A hold on my heart a break in my soul
You’ve got to reason
With yourself with somebodyyy

This loneliness you felt so long
Upon you now never this strong
A quenching thirst alive desire
Aloud passion, screaming fire
Feel that within yourself, with somebody

Chorus:
Never ending story
Never ending promises
A hold on my memory
Thought itd tear my soul to shreds

Never ending losses
Never stopping causes
The world ain’t over quite yet
I'm not ready to regret

Everlong- Foo Fighters

2010-03-14T00:51:00.000-05:00

No Time of Worry

2010-03-14T00:41:00.005-05:00

Worry rises in you like a rock carved into stone
She said she'd go to see you
But you're there, left all alone

Time is never ending
Your mind is full of doubt
That other one sits beside you
Her eyes follow you as you walk out

...and on and on your fall awaits
either plunge or risk heartbreak
how would you do it

You can't compare what isn't yours
You can't despair over stupid chores
Too fast time flies to really care
What you do, is the foundation to whats already there

Unknown

2010-02-22T21:55:00.003-05:00

Sometimes, it is good to be "alone"
but that doesn't make us lonely..

It is not a matter of being present with someone,
it is a matter of being present to someone.

My Gold Star for Life

2010-02-21T22:42:00.002-05:00

"You're a hard worker, you have an undying optimisim, you bleed confidence and refinement, and you make those around you happier, you deserve the shiny gold star for life!"

-Thank you, you made my day!

Heart Shaped Glasses

2010-02-21T12:23:00.001-05:00

Together as One... against all others

Love is a Place

2010-02-19T20:29:00.002-05:00

2010-02-14T19:33:00.002-05:00

I'm so much more than a bytch in a box

patiently reaching
patiently working
patiently waiting

to reach and show my full potential

Sade- Soldier of Love

2010-02-14T11:39:00.003-05:00

My new obsession.. soldier of love. I've always loved Sade.. so Excited that she's back!!

Happy Valentine's Day <3

I've lost the use of my heart
But I'm still alive
Still looking for the life
The endless pool on the other side
It's a wild wild west
I'm doing my best

I'm at the borderline of my faith,
I'm at the hinterland of my devotion
In the frontline of this battle of mine
But I'm still alive

I'm a soldier of love.
Every day and night
I'm soldier of love
All the days of my life

I've been torn up inside (oh!)
I've been left behind (oh!)
So I ride
I have the will to survive

In the wild wild west,
Trying my hardest
Doing my best
To stay alive

I am love's soldier!

I wait for the sound
(oooh oohhh)
I know that love will come (that love will come)
Turn it all around

I'm a soldier of love (soldier of love)
Every day and night
I'm a soldier of love
All the days of my life

I am lost
But I don't doubt (oh!)
So I ride
I have the will to survive

In the wild wild west,
Trying my hardest
Doing my best
To stay alive

I am love's soldier!

I wait for the sound

I know that love will come
I know that love will come
Turn it all around

Did you know?

2010-01-23T10:37:00.003-05:00

It is believed that mineral waters help furnish elements for body metabolism. However, there is scientific proof that suggests that majority of these minerals are in an inorganic (dead) form. Although they can enter circulation, they can not b used in physio processes - building of the human cell.

Mineral water may give "dead" minerals to the body which can not be properly assimiliated.

The body's needs for minerals is largely met through foods, not drinking water- The American Medical Journal

The organic minerals in tap water represent only 1% of the total mineral content of the water.
One glass of orange juice contains more beneficial minerals than thirty gallons of of untreated tap water.

He Said, She Said

2010-01-20T21:30:00.003-05:00

Better left unspoken
But the heart quenches for the truth

My heart, the windows you provided me with are now broken
I thought I found smtn, serenity, youth

My dear friend I'm torn by your shatter n losses
I'm torn and deeply feel for you
I will be here and provide a lending hand
I understand, I was once there, I will be true

Anything I say can't ammend for what it is you feel

Vampire Weekend

2010-01-15T17:03:00.002-05:00

I just have to have some Vammpire Weekend today..

The first week of school is officially done! The Masters application is officially submitted...

Time to get a buzz ha!

Agnieszka Chilinska- Nie Kochana, Unloved

2010-01-09T20:09:00.005-05:00

Love this kind of rock.. don't know what to name it..
but this song, created maybe 10yrs ago is very KOL.. and I love Kings of Leon lol.
It has a slow-like intro but it builds as she gets more agitated, more stronger. The singer, Agnieszka Chylinska, was very metal back then but now she's more rocky/pop. I love her either way- one of the many talented Polish singers (she's one of the judges on "Poland's Got Talent" lol).
Powerful words to this music as well.. I'll try my best to translate.

Crying towards empty walls, how embarassing.
I was with someone for some time, it's not important anymore.
Feelin' that around me, noone is capable to love.
Feelin' that it's always gonna be this way.

Moving towards your embrace, but I don't feel anything.
I'm scared to feel something
It hurts, I know.

I am alone, that's my loss.
I'm unloved, that's my loss.

I can't love because, I am weak if I do.
I don't think about myself an I lose myself.
I give everything but I don't have anything.
Again he loves me, another stranger.

I am alone, that's my loss.
I'm unloved, that's my loss.
Maybe you're knocking on my door
But tell me why I can't hear anything.

I'm not gunna lie directly to my face
I'm not gunna tear myself apart.
I'm sorry that I loved you. I know. I know.

ForzaMotorsport3

2009-12-29T18:56:00.003-05:00

My bf bought this game, a steering wheel, and an xbox for my dad this Christmas
and I must say it is amazing! and of course he is amazing too for doing such!

I have been playing everyday since the gift was opened and I can not get enough. My dad doesn't want to admit that I'm a little better than he is.. and I know he secretly practices at night when I'm asleep lol! I only wish I could be doing this for real, not infront of a tv =(

The Black Stalion

2009-12-29T18:35:00.003-05:00

His hooves pound the beat, your heart sings the song

-Jerry Shulman

Cold Desert

2009-12-29T18:32:00.000-05:00

I'm on the corner waiting for a light to come on
that's when i know that you're alone
it's cold in the desert water never sees the ground
special ones walk on without sound

told me you love me, that i'd never die alone
hand over your heart let's go on
everyone knowed it everyone has seen the signs
i've always been known to cross lines

i never ever cried when i was feeling down
ive always been scared of the sound
jesus don't love me no-one ever carried my load
im too young to feel this old

nobody knows
nobody sees
nobody but me

I Have a Dream

2009-12-10T15:48:00.002-05:00

I have a dream..
that my four little children will one day live in a Nation where they will not be judged by the colour of their skin but by the content of their character.

Martin Luther King Jr, 1963

Shakira- Did It Again

2009-12-06T20:41:00.004-05:00

In love with the choreography to this video..

It may seem to you that I am in a place
Where I'm losing the direction of my life
But I'm sure that this is nothing but a phase
Right back at ya cuz I'll survive!

Environment

2009-11-22T19:49:00.003-05:00

Above: Ixtapaluca, Mexico

From Kurt Vonnegut:

"If flying saucer creatures or angels or whatever were to come here in a hundred years, say, and find us gone like the dinosaurs, what might be a good message for humanity to leave for them, maybe carved in great big letters on a Grand Canyon wall?

We probably could have saved ourselves, but were too damned lazy to try very hard... and too damned cheap".

An African Proverb:

"If you want to go quickly, go alone; if you want to go far, go together".. we need to go far and quick!

2012

2009-11-19T21:36:00.001-05:00

2012 meets Noah's Arc.

Liked the film =) it's deeper than just the awesome tsunami and volcanic reactions lol.

A suggested watch =)

The Haunted Tale of the Runnymede Theatre

2009-11-18T17:28:00.002-05:00

Historic Chapters at Runnymede Theatre in Toronto

The Runnymede Theatre, located at Bloor and Runnymede was built in 1927 as a vaudeville theatre (vaudeville- theatrical genre: musicians, actors, circus acts, live animals, freak shows, magicians). It was the first of its kind in Toronto. The theatre seated 1400 guests and was ment to give the audience an exotic experience. The ceiling was painted blue with overhanging white clouds, airplanes, and stars. The walls were lined with murals giving the effect of sitting in a courtyard. It was during this time, the theatre's 'hey- day', that tragedy hit. It is rumoured that a young girl was intentially murdered on the stage of the theatre. The cause of death was a sandbag that was dropped from the ceiling of the stage causing her instant death. It is also rumoured that her body was kept in the basement a little after the tragedy occurred. None of this has been proven to be true. There are no records indicating the death of anybody at the theatre. However, there have been sightings and there have been sounds of a little girl around the stage and basement of the building. Most of these unexplainable things occur during the night and early morning hours. I just looked up on the net of "stories" from previous workers who have worked at the location before it was a Chapters, when it was a Famous Players theatre.

One of the famous player ppl claims to have felt movement, felt a change in temperature in the basement. however I'm more familiar with the Chapters storied. One of the workers claims to have been pushed when stackin books on the shelves. A manager claims he heard a little girl crying from the corner of the stage and to have seen a fague figure stretching out its arms in the distance while he was working in the basement. Customers claim they have seen books falling off the book shelves (but to their benefit, helping them find the books they couldn't on their own).

My encounter was today. I never worked around the stage before so I never understood what the big fuss was about. The whole store is so pleasant and it is so warm and inviting. But when you're on that stage alone, the whole store is facing and watching you. The stage is cold, very long and very poorly lit. Occassionally the lights flicker. When I was shelving the books on the stage (I was there half of my shift, from 5am to 7:30am), a coworker decided to come visit me. We were in mid conversation when we heard a high pitched female laugh. It wasn't a giggle. It was a "ha-ha" and it seemed like it was very close to us. We stopped talking and she asked me if I heard it.. to which I answered yes. We were the only ones in the stage/fiction area. After analyzing the other sounds of coworkers who were scattered around the store, we couldn't find anything that matched what we heard. The other sounds had echos, were mummbles. What we heard did not. We dismissed the idea of a ghost because we came to the conclusion that our manager has the same laugh and she must have been laughing loudly. After that it was difficult to work on that stage. the ceiling is so high and I just imagined where the sandbags must have been lol. You also can't help feeling that someone is looking through the gaps between the bookshelves opposite of you. Very. Eeery.

Aneways, after the shift ended I asked the cashiers where the manager was because I had to pick up my shift. They said she wasn't in today...

Hi

2009-11-17T16:44:00.000-05:00

I Miss you Blogger <3

But work, work, work keeps me occupied so!

Poodles <33

2009-11-09T14:12:00.002-05:00

I loove Standard Poodles!

They are so smart and gentle =)

Cancer on Nature

2009-11-09T09:42:00.001-05:00

Our environmental problems originate in the hubris of imagining ourselves as the central nervous system or the brain of nature. We're not the brain, we are a cancer on nature. ~Dave Foreman, Harper's, April 1990

Wuthering Heights by Emily Bronte

2009-11-05T21:07:00.003-05:00

"Cathy, oh my hearts darling.. Cathy, come back to me!"

I have just completed reading Wuthering Heights and after some frustration, misunderstanding, and some time spent on 'dictionary.com', I am very satisfied with this book. I've never read about love so passionate, delusional, and full of envy and revenge.

Let me just say that the first three chapters are not worth the time. I spent soo much time deciphering them that now I think it would be wise to ommit them altogether and start from the real story, chapter 4.

Chapters 1-3 in a nutshell describe the characters in the book (the names are confusing and the use of the same name for different characters doesn't help). What made these chapters confusing was the use of old english and travelling back and forth through time. In these chapters, a man named Mr. Lockley takes up residence in Thrushgrove Grange, a house owned by Heathcliff, who resides in Wuthering Heights. Lockley visits Heathcliff one night in winter and he discovers that Heathcliff is very nasty, greedy, selfish, and a little delusional. Lockley also meets a boy named Hareton, a girl named Cathy Linton, housekeeper Zillah, and servant Joseph.
they are very mean and sad people- with no manners. Because of the storm outside, Lockwood asks permission to stay the night at Wuthering Heights.. when he does, he discovers a room full of possessions from a Catherine Earnshaw, whom ghost he clamis to have seen. After the night is over, he goes back hom to Thrushgrove Grange, where he persuades his housekeeper, Nelly Dean, to tell the story of Heathcliff and the people in that house.

The story (going back 40 years in time) in simple english goes like this:
Heathcliff, a gypsy orphan has been taken in by Mr. Earnshaw who lives at Wuthering Heights. Mr. Earnshaw has two children, Hindley Earnshaw and Catherine Earnshaw. Hindley is always mean to Heathcliff, beats him up and treats himm like crap. Catherine Earnshaw treats Heathcliff fairly and as the two grow up together in the meadows of the English country, they form a strong bond.

Mr. Earnshaw passes away, Hindley marries, and takes over the household. He is mean to Heathcliff and abuses him. He forbids his sister Catherine to play with Heathcliff so they frequently play away from the house in the meadows, without his knowledge. For this horrible life, Emily Bronte does some foreshadowing: Heathcliff is caught saying that he will have revenge on Hindley, no matter how long it takes.

One day Catherine and Heathcliff decide to explore Thrushgrove Grange, one of the neighbouring houses. Catherine, a wild spirit, gets hurt, and when the owners of the house, the Lintons, discover her, they take her in and take care of her. Heathcliff was declined an offer to stay at the Linton;s because they think he is a servant (The Linton;s have two children, Isabella Linton and Edgar Linton). So Heathcliff goes home and Catherine stays at the Linton's for a few months. She returns home a new, sophisticated lady- well- dressed and well- worded. She spends more time with the Linton children than with Heathcliff (although she loves Heathcliff, she is a little embrassed of him).

Edgar Linton proposes to Catherine. Catherine accepts. Heathcliff overhears Catherine tell Nelly Dean (the housekeeper telling the story) that she loves Heathcliff but he has no money, no property or wealth and can;t give her what she wants. Heathcliff runs away. Three years later Heathcliff comes back wealthy. As vengeance he fools the now dying hindley earnshaw to pass over wuthering Heights to him. He also attains guardianship of hindley's son.. who is a toddler.. and in the long run Heathcliff lets the boy run wild, neglects his education, and the boy loses the rights to his own property and is dumb as a piece of wood. His name is Hareton Earnshaw.

Next, Catherine and Heathcliff often visit eachother.. she admits she loves Heathcliff. Heathcliff tells her to run away.. but she loves Edgar Linton too.. so she can't. Heathcliff decides to woe Edgar's sister, Isabella Linton. She falls in love with Heathcliff and against Edgar Linton's orders, she marries Heathcliff. Heathcliff only used Isabella to torment both Catherine and Edgar.. and treats her like crap at Wuthering Heights.
Heathcliff and Catherine continue to see eachother behind Edgar Linton's for a long time.. until Edgar finds out and tells her to choose Heathcliff or himself. Catherine falls deeply ill, does not make a decision, and because she is pregnant.. gives birth to a daughter and dies.

Isabella Linton runs away from Heathcliff.. lives in the South with her and Heathcliff's son. Time passes.. Cathy Linton 9the daughter of Edgar and Catherine) grows into a charming young lady. Isabella Linton dies.. and begs her brother Edgar to take care of her son Linton Heathcliff (LOL @ with the names.. grrrr). BUT Heathcliff hears of this and takes Linton away. Cathy doesn't understand what happened.. she also doesn;t know anything about her mother or Heathcliff..until one day she finds out... In short, Heathcliff forms a new plan.. to marry cathy and her cousin Linton. The two do love eachother (because they have been sending letters and Cathy has been visiting him at Wuthering Heights without her father's knowledge). Linton falls sick and is very weak. Edgar Linton is also in a frail state and he is dying. Edgar then finds out about Cathy visintg Linton and bans her from any communication. But one day she runs away to Wuthering Heights.. and is surprisingly kept there against her will by Heathcliff who forces her to marry Linton. She wants to get home and inform her father about her whereabouts but Heathcliff beats her and forces her to marry his son. She does and she goes home to her dying father. A few weeks pass and Linton, her husband dies as well. Now, Heathcliff is the owner of both Thrushgrove Range and Wuthering Heights.. his revenge is complete. Catherine is also forced to stay at Wuthering Heights.

Back to the present. Catherine falls in love with her other cousin, Hareton (the uneducated boy). She educates him. When Heathcliff learns of this new love he is about to scorn Cathy.. but then suffers a mental breakdown and begins to see Catherine's ghost. that night he dies, with the window open, rain coming in from the outside, a smile on his face, and his hand stretched out towards the window.
It is believed he is reaching for the hand of Catherine, his love, who has tormented him all these years.. and he is happy to finally have found peace with her.
he is burried next to Catherine. Catherine's husband, Edgar is buried across of her.
Lockwood then visits the graveyard and notes how peaceful they look.

The end.

The movie filmed in 1939 is a very close encounter of the book. The 1992 version isn;t very good, and I found was more confusing.

What's in a Shot?

2009-11-05T19:55:00.004-05:00

Do what you please with this quote:

"By 1853, Parliament began passing laws to make the untested vaccine compulsory throughout the British Empire. Other countries of Europe followed suit. Once the economic implications of compulsory vaccinations were realized, few dared to disagree. Then, as now, the media were controlled by the vaccine manufacturers and the government, who stood to make huge money from the sale of these spurious vaccines."... Tim O'Shea, D.C.

I highly advise a quick glance at the following website: http://www.russellblaylockmd.com/
click under Swine Flu Data.

Anthems Intertwined

2009-11-01T20:37:00.003-05:00

Heroes of the sea, noble people,

Brave and immortal nation, Arise today once more

The splendor of Portugal! Amidst the mists of memory,

Oh Fatherland, hear the voice Of your noble forefathers,

That shall lead you to victory!

Poland has not died yet, So long as we still live

That which alien force has seized, We at sabrepoint shall retrieve
March, march, Dabrowski, To Poland from Italy
Under thy command, Let us now rejoin the nation

Like Czarniecki to Poznan, Returned across the sea

To free our fatherland from chains, Fighting with the Swede

To arms, to arms! Over the land, over the sea,

To arms, to arms!To fight for our Fatherland!

Against the cannons, march, march!

Cross the Vistula and Warta, And Poles we shall be

We've been shown by Bonaparte, Ways to victory

Germans, Muscovites will not rest when, backsword in hand

"Concord" will be our watchword, And ours will be the Fatherland

The Cure is More Dangerous than the Disease

2009-10-31T08:59:00.004-04:00

H1N1 .. questions?

"The cure is more dangerous than the disease", says President of the non-proft Vaccine Information Centre in the USA, Barbara Loe Fisher.

The following is from an article by Dr. Mercola (http://articles.mercola.com/sites/articles/archive/2009/07/04/Warning-Swine-Flu-Vaccine-Coming-Soon.aspx)
School Children May Face Mandatory Swine Flu Vaccinations
I was hoping mandatory vaccinations would not happen, but it now appears as though that's exactly what we might be facing in the near future.
In the video above, Barbara Loe Fisher of the National Vaccine Information Center (NVIC) warns that there is a campaign underway to turn schools into virtual vaccination clinics, and children will be the first to be injected with experimental swine flu vaccines.
Part of the reasoning for this is that it appears people over the age of 50 have more cross-reacting antibodies against the current swine flu virus, whereas children who have never been exposed to any of the strains before are more vulnerable.
The Post Gazette recently reported experts saying, "if the new H1N1 flu comes back in force this fall, it might be better to vaccinate children first," because "in the early stages of the epidemic this spring, the new flu strain has caused "explosive outbreaks" among schoolchildren who have no immunity to it."
Again, it's troubling to see health officials using the term "explosive outbreaks" for a flu that in the vast majority of cases has been reported to be very mild.
Making matters worse, they want to target children who have underlying health problems, i.e. the most vulnerable of the group, which means any potential problems with this untested vaccine will have the capacity to do maximum damage.

Why are We Putting Up With the Same Mistakes Again?
The current evolution of public health decisions has disturbing similarities to previous swine flu vaccine catastrophes'. The last swine flu threat emerged in 1976, right before I entered medical school and I remember it very clearly. It resulted in the massive swine flu vaccine campaign.
However, within a few months, claims totaling $1.3 billion had been filed by victims who had suffered paralysis from the experimental vaccine. Several hundred people developed crippling Guillain-Barré Syndrome after their injections. Even healthy 20-year-olds ended up as paraplegics. The vaccine was also blamed for 25 deaths.
Meanwhile, the deadly swine flu pandemic itself NEVER materialized…
When a vaccine is developed in a mere 13 weeks, you can be virtually assured that it has NOT had the time to be tested in clinical trials to determine safety and effectiveness.
The way I see it, we now stand poised to experience a repeat of the last dangerous swine flu vaccine, which destroyed the lives of hundreds of healthy young boys and girls.
The real kicker, of course, is the fact that if the new vaccine turns out to be a killer, the pharmaceutical companies responsible have immunity from any lawsuits -- something I've also warned about before on numerous occasions.
Absolutely no one stands to be liable if this vaccine turns out to be a health
disaster.

So far, the swine flu has claimed a mere 332 lives WORLDWIDE (as of July 1), 116 of the deaths occurred in Mexico.
To keep this in perspective, the regular flu (not the swine flu) has allegedly killed 13,000 in the U.S. since January, although there is strong support that these types of figures are grossly exaggerated to increase vaccine sales. However, the fact remains that the regular flu at this point in time is FAR more dangerous than the swine flu, and were you worried about the regular flu before the media started hyping up this exotic new "killer flu"?

Another article to read is by Dr. Zona Rona: http://www.vitalitymagazine.com/oct09_pg32feat
It provides other useful links about the H1N1 flu

The Boy in the Striped Pyjamas

2009-10-28T18:31:00.003-04:00

After reading the book I decided to watch the movie.
The following is the trailer:

It still leaves me speechless..
The book itself isn't very long and it is written through the eyes of an 8yr old.. there is a minimal difference btwn book and movie and both broke my heart. I recommend reading the book and watching the movie because the book expresses little things that are quite relevant to the degree innocense and ignorance of these children (for example the use of words such as 'Out-With' instead of Auschwitz, 'The Fury' instead of the Fuhrer).

(Oh and it isn't based on a true story.. but that's irrelevant)

Night- Elie Wiesel

2009-10-28T14:43:00.004-04:00

An autobiography... a true story of a fifteen year old boy's experience in Aushwitz.

"Never shall I forget that night, the first night in camp, that turned my life into one long night seven times sealed.
Never shall I forget that smoke.
Never shall I forget the small faces of the children whose bodies I saw transformed into smoke under a silent sky.
Never shall I forget those flames that consumed my faith forever.
Never shall I forget the nocturnal silence that deprived me for all eternity of the desire to live.
Never shall I forget those moments that murdered my God and my soul and turned my dreams into ashes.
Never shall I forget those things, even were I condemned to live as long as God himself.
Never", p 34.

"What are you, my God? I thought angrily. How do you compare to this stricken mass gathered to affirm to you their faith, their anger, their defiance? What does Your grandeur mean, Master of the universe, in the face of all this cowardice, this decay, and this misery? Why do you go troubling this poor people's wounded minds, their ailing bodies?", p 66 .

"I no longer pleaded for anything. I was no longer able to lament. On the contrary, I felt very strong. I was the accuser, God the accused. My eyes had opened and I was alone, terribly alone in a world without God, without man. Without love or mercy. I was nothing but ashes now, but I felt myself to be stronger than this Almighty to whom my life had been bound for so long. in the midst of these men assembled for prayer, I felt like an observer, a stranger". xx

Autumn Glory

2009-10-28T14:24:00.002-04:00

The pavement flashing in fall colour; all the leaves under my feet.
How suddenly the dark grey turned into hues of gold, yellow, and orange.
My eyes trying to outline every leaf on the golden blanket I walked on.
Never before was I awake to encapture this sight, autumn in its full glory.
As of today I decided this is my favourite season of the year.. lest it stay this warm and its colour never fade!

Convocation 2009

2009-10-25T21:20:00.005-04:00

This is a Video of the Fall 2009 Convocation =)

My convocation was held on Thursday October 22 at 9:30 am.

I very much liked being amidst my fellow peers and graduates! The ceremony itself was amusing and had a very family-like atmosphere, which I felt very comfortable in.

The faculty speaker was introduced by one of our professors as a person with "little experience, little fame, but with great advice".. and the best advice she gave us all was "Marry Rich!".. lol! At this we all got a good crack =)

Aneways, the Bachelor of Science in Biology diplomas are awarded at the time "1:17" into the video. I am the second one going up.. ahaha.. I laugh at myself watching this =P

http://www.ryecast.ryerson.ca/dmpstreams/convocationfall2009/index.asp

My dad started the whole "name- yelling" thing at the ceremony lol.. oh man! I was laughing on stage when I heard my name.

Mr. G. Raymond Chang and I

Congrats to all!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-10-25T21:15:00.004-04:00

There are times when there is a friend in need..
a time when a friend needs an attentive listener and a helping hand.

I don't want to give up and I don't want to neglect you..
but sometimes what truly breaks my heart is knowing that you are suffering while I am occupied with my everyday rituals with very limited time to be there for you.

I hate that and I am sorry.

Frankie Hunny, You're Too Good For Me

2009-10-19T22:06:00.004-04:00

lmfao.wma

What a lovely Monday afternoon.. and I spent most of it fooling around with recording a couple of snips from the song "Night and Day". It wasn't easy! and in this version I came up with my own lyrics after the youtube page with lyrics escaped me haha. I like it the best :P

What You Say

2009-10-18T21:13:00.004-04:00

Can't get this outta my heaadd.. Wha- wha - wha.. What did she sayyy?

Ugh

2009-10-17T23:48:00.001-04:00

I need some better recording devices... =(

I've been meaning to put up my videos on piano lol.
But I've failed technologically. * I'm Sad

Adele

2009-10-17T23:43:00.005-04:00

Heard this song to the Burberry Fall Collection at the Milan Fashion Week. Stunning.

I like it in the city when two worlds collide
You get the ppl n the government
Everybody taking different sides
Shows that we aint gunna stand shit
Shows that we are united

Love her sound, love her look: a real, down to earth girl!
She hasn't been popularized yet and I hope she doesn't turn Lady Gaga.

Water- St. Thomas, Nevada

2009-10-16T11:51:00.003-04:00

By doing some extra research on a book that I am currently reading, I stummbled upon the term "ghost town". The town of St. Thomas is one of the many ghost towns in the state of Nevada. It was abandoned by all its residents due to the formation of Lake Mead, a reservoir that flooded the whole town upon the completion of the Hoover Dam in 1938. The town was under 100 ft of water for sixty years. However, in the past decade it begun exposing itself once more due to the receding water levels of the Lake. This is amazing in terms of both history and science (The combination of those two fields sparks an automatic interest in me). Barely anything of the town remains and it truly is astonishing comparing maps and pictures of what was there before and what lies there now. I can rammble on and on about my thoughts about this.. admiring how man can create something as large as a lake, use it to his advantage then be left with nothing. In the end nature wins. This creates a discussion for another topic: climate change! Decreasing amounts of freshwater, decreasing populations of fish.. where does Canada stand.. and should Canada be allowed to "sell or exploit" fresh water to less fortunate nations who lack this valuable resource? That's a topic for another day haha.

How To Be

2009-10-15T22:12:00.007-04:00

"I'm going through some kind of quarter life crisis". Omg I nearly fell off my chair when I heard that.

The movie follows the everyday life of Arthur, who is at an unhappy moment in his life and is searching for his place in the world. Art has a degree in music, has two loyal friends, volunteers at a community centre, and just got dumped by his girl. His parents don't show him affection and he begins to blame all his problems on them. He decides to write to a Canadian author of a book titled "It's Not Your Fault", of which the author decides to help Art with his problems by living his life with him. In the end, the author does not help and Art slowly and very timidly gets his life back on track by himself.

I liked the film because of its indie feel. It is very realistic and Rob's acting is quite good. However, the trailer is more exciting than the film itself.. and if its excitement you're after, then I do not reccommend this film. There were some parts in it that I found hillarious.. mainly Art's inability to make the most of certain situations.. for example, with girls. His friend is teasing a girl and says, "this is really turning me on", and proceeds to laugh. Art on the other hand holds his drink stifly and with a proper english accent says "Yes, I have an erection".. haha! 2 Funny. Put simply Art is a delicate, lost, and ignorant soul.. he is so timid and innocent. I also love how he gives himself props infront of the mirror in the trailer.. haha.

For full movie:
http://www.wisevid.com/gateway.php?viewkey=d75efc30d93e0c500bf6

Ghost Rider (under construction)

2009-10-14T21:53:00.018-04:00

I look at my hands.

Fingerless leather gloves, a delicate gold ring on my ring finger, nails painted cherry red.

These are the things I see and the only things I see directly infront of me that are directing where I am and where I am about to go. I focus on how ghetto my hands look. "You're such a bad ass", I say to myself amused. But I suppose this is the feeling I've been longing for, to run that very thin line of being controlled and being completely out of control.

My fingers, holding tightly to the black leather of the steering wheel, define a simple truth that highlights the intensity of the moment. This touch connects us, man and machine, and controls our co-dependence. I press my forehead against the wheel and listen to the gentle vibration of the car. I feel the turns of your engine. You feel the heavy pulsing of my heart.

My attention briefly switches to the road. The fog makes me uncertain of how much of it I really see. Of course it would have helped having the headlights on but that's something I would have done yesterday. Not tonight. Tonight, is my escape. An escape from a ritual which is my perfectly planned life.

So I wait.
In this darkness I forget what it is I am looking for. I forget from whom I am running or is it whom I am chasing? I wait for that single undefinable moment that releases my anguish and separates my thoughts from my mind.

A car speeds by.

I feel a spark inside of me.
(A spark? How slow motion that sounds!)
In a split second, NO! in a split quarter of a second there is lightning inside of me. A feeling so fast that it fails to be classified as anything humanly possible. No thinking, for thinking takes too long. No analyzing, for there isn't time to relinquish a single thought. Only acting and releasing that passive agressive.

The decision now belongs to my right foot, how hard it presses down and for how long.
I slam the acceleration and curve out of the sleeve where I was parked, lights turned off.

Sixty, seventy.. eighty kilometres an hour.

I swurve past a truck full of cattle (Mooo! lol).
"This one is impeccably fast", I think to myself. I chase the red car as if I were chasing my destiny, in full view but far from reach. He must be aware of my intensions by now. Why else would he still be accelerating, tempting me? Or maybe he doesn't see me at all and he's running from his own ghosts.

A red light coming up. Perfect. By now I am on his tale. I decide to stop to the left of him. A rusty little car he has. It had some work done though. Souped up with a spoiler, a lowered frame... neon lights? Were those necessary?

"Hey Ghost Rider!", I hear through my window. Ghost rider? "Nice", I say to myself. How appropriately cheesy that sounds. I let down my guard and slide my window open. "Nice car you got there", he says. "Can't say the same about you", I muffle under my breath. I proceed to smile at him and reply, "I like yours too, vintage?". He laughs, "Not as good as yours but it does wonders! Just wait and see", he turns his lights off and throws in a VROOM.

I roll my eyes. Unless he has some nitrous oxide under that hood, he doesn't stand a chance. I accept the challenge, and VROOM back.

Green light.
In an instant my heart feels weightless. I lose the red car instantly. But really, what do I care where he is. I am weightless and I am finally free.

I believe

2009-10-13T22:17:00.008-04:00

I believe in pink.
I believe that laughing is the best calorie burner.
I believe in kissing, kissing a lot!
I believe in being strong,
when everything seems to be going wrong.
I believe that happy girls..
are the prettiest girls.
I believe that tomorrow is another day,
and I believe in miracles.

-Audrey Hepburn

I believe in everything this woman stood for ..living a happy life =) ..but pink? I don't know. I believe in green =D

Finally a Reed Diffuser!

2009-10-13T20:52:00.005-04:00

I am obsessed with Winners and Kitchen Stuff Plus nowadays lol.

I bought meself some orange EMU boots on sale for 50$ last week.. and this week I added another jacket to my jacket collection =D

I got a hold of this beige, almost Burberry, trench coat that falls slightly above the knees. Sooo in love with it right now!

And at Kitchen Stuff Plus.. I finally got a reed diffuser! I always wanted one of those =) and now finally my quest is complete. I chose a smell that reminds me of my bf.. "fresh linen" lol! So now I can have a similar scent to him in my room.. how weird does that make me? lol w/e tho, it makes me happy =)

"So, I Would be His First Girlfriend"

2009-10-12T21:53:00.003-04:00

Here's a little taste of Nightlight (Twilight parody) before it hits the bookshelves:

A computer sat before him on the table. He stared intently at the screen, narrowing his eyes into slits and concentrating those slits on the screen as if the only thing that mattered to him was physically dominating that screen. He was muscular, like a man who could pin you up against the wall as easily as a poster, yet lean, like a man who would rather cradle you in his arms. He had reddish, blonde-brown hair that was groomed heterosexually. He looked older than the other boys in the room—maybe not as old as God or my father, but certainly a viable replacement. Imagine if you took every woman’s idea of a hot guy and averaged it out into one man. This was that man.

“What is that?” I asked, knowing that whatever it was it wasn’t avian.

“That’s Edwart Mullen,” Lucy said.

Edwart. I had never met a boy named Edwart before. Actually, I had never met any human named Edwart before. It was a funny sounding name. Much funnier than Edward.

As we sat there, gazing at him for what seemed like hours but couldn’t have been more than the entire lunch period, his eyes suddenly flicked toward me, slithering over my face and boring into my heart like fangs. Then in a flash they went back to glowering at that screen.

“He moved here two years ago from Alaska,” she said.

So not only was he pale like me, but he was also an outsider from a state that begins with an “A.” I felt a surge of empathy. I had never felt a connection like this before.

“That boy’s not worth your time,” she said wrongly. “Edwart doesn’t date.”

I smirked inwardly and snorted outwardly. So, I would be his first girlfriend.

On Long Distance

2009-10-12T09:05:00.000-04:00

"It's so difficult to explain. We trust eachother 150%.. and having that distance (as corny as it sounds) makes us stronger. Every time we talk to one another is like a high.. cuz we don't talk often.. so it just feels really good when we do. And only conversation is what I look forward to.. just knowing he'll always be there feels better than anything else in the world.."

Nighlight

2009-10-11T21:43:00.000-04:00

LOL!
Twilight vs. Nightlight!

On November 3rd, a parody of the Twilight Saga hits the bookstores. After reading a small summary of the book, I must say that I am impressed.. and giggling at all the obsessed tweens out there. The plot is very laugh-out-loud! It explores the mind of a delusional teenager who is so obsessed with her high school crush that she imagines and wrongly claims he is a vampire. Now, THIS story I can believe.
Here's a more detailed overview of the book:

"The book, published by Random House's Vintage Books imprint, will hit your local bookstore on November 3. According to EW.com, it will focus on a young lady named Belle Goose, who is described as "pale and klutzy." When she moves to Switchblade, Oregon, she meets a fellow high school student named Edwart Mullen.

Belle, who has an obsession with vampires, convinces herself that the "super-hot computer nerd with zero interest in girls" is one because he does things she considers supernatural like leaving his Tater Tots untouched at lunch and saving her from a flying snowball."

For more plz visit http://www.mtv.com/movies/news/articles/1623370/story.jhtml

BadaBoom!

2009-10-07T01:10:00.001-04:00

Apparently AlleyCatz is the place to be for this type of scene =)
Can't wait to get my swing on!

Quick Vid of Dinner

2009-10-06T14:41:00.006-04:00

Rushing through this vid...Amor's like WTF?

But this is what I made for dinner today =)

There goes being a vegetarian haha.. no seriously, I made this for my folks (the meat lovers).. I might get tempted into trying a little bit =P

P.S- The potatoes with "herbs and stuff" are killlerrr!
for lack of words..haha

Meet Me Halfway

2009-10-06T13:24:00.002-04:00

OMG @ all the spelling mistakes.. frigg ppls, edit!

Convocation

2009-10-06T13:14:00.006-04:00

Got two ticks in the mail today =)

Oh Happy Day! Convocation is near... October 22 =)
Its odd that the 22cnd of October is a Thursday hmm... Sorry Boo u're not invited lol ..cuz u can't make it anyway =(

*Sigh.. Update: Graduation= not so happy day! .. yes it should be this huge celebratory achievement but some ppl from the fams can't make it.. and I might have to work that day too. Bleh, looks like another graduation missed! Won't be the first time.. but it won't be a big deal either.

Thirty Four

2009-10-04T21:55:00.005-04:00

One day I will be thirty four.

Will I be a wife.. a mother?
Or will my life take an unexpected turn..
Will I have a beautiful home?
Or will I travel endlessly not able to settle down..
Will I be hott, fun, and spontaneous?
Will I still laugh at every little funny moment that everyday will bring?

HA! and will I still chat on msn?

One day I will be thirty four.
What an odd yet thrilling thought.

Kitchen Stuffs

2009-10-02T09:37:00.003-04:00

So I made myself some cabbage soup =) haha and it turned out reallllllyyy well!

It was the first soup I made.. ever! It tastes kind of like the sweet and sour soup from Mandarin.

6 green onions, 2 large peppers, 1 can of tomatoes (diced), 3 carrots, 1 cabbage, 1 box of mushrooms, Lipton onion soup mix.. and 12-15 cups of water..

you cut those up, mix em together..and then season for flavour! DONE

Feminism

2009-09-30T23:18:00.004-04:00

Whenever I hear a woman opposing feminism I feel that she is taking advantage of her right to think that way in the first place. How hypocrytical! The education we are allowed to pursue, the strength and confidence in the workforce, and the ability to vote, all of these things have been fought for by many brave and strong women before our time. The world is afraid of strong women. When such a woman rises everyone..both men and women.. are threatened by her and try to rip her apart. It's so sad.

No End

2009-09-30T23:10:00.005-04:00

This is the darkest I get lol! I still don't understand what this is about completely.. just random thoughts in my head that I've been dying to get out in writing:

Your pretty perfect mistake
is all it takes for me
to realize u're a reject
caught far from the truth

All this time u act like theres nothin
nothin to say, nothin to do
so stop tryin to prove by cussin
what do u want me to say to u

Trapped in this circle
No end
and even if you hate her
its stupid not to give in

I Just Want Everyone to be.. Happy

2009-09-30T22:58:00.001-04:00

Sometimes..

2009-09-30T00:28:00.002-04:00

Sometimes when you least expect it..
or sometimes when u want smtn' really bad without knowing .. u put urself at risk.

Such is what happens with a bottle of Absinthe and 151.

If you start talking to a dorky-cute looking guy and he tells you.. "I hear that stuff can give you
hallucinations".. then based on his dorky appearance, you better trust every freakin word that comes out of his mouth!

.. And when you feel like you're standing on top of the world..
Chances are you're standing on top of a fine white leather sofa in the VIP section, with ur hands stretched out..
.. And you thought that was your bf standing on the bottom of Mount Everest trying to catch you?
No, it was a very mad security guard, yelling at you to come down!
.. And when you jumped you thought you'd fly?
No, you fell straight on ur face revealing more than any1 wanted to see

Make sure you have great friends that take tons of pictures and make an effort not to erase that lil' glitch in ur mind.. haha!

The Weekeenndd is heereee~!

2009-09-26T12:55:00.000-04:00

..

2009-09-25T11:37:00.004-04:00

Lisa: I just don't want to regret netn.

Joe: Do you, at this time?

Lisa: No, but let's just say I'm aware of our situation.. and you should be too.

Joe: I'm aware that I'm in love.

Lisa: I know.. and that's so rare to find. What the hell did I do to you?

LOL

2009-09-24T01:25:00.000-04:00

Every so often a smell, a word, or picture
brings you back to a memory of what was before..

a taste of what could have been before something
that changed it.

A heart to heart, a simple talk..
thoughts and words spurring, and the truth comes out.

The truth you desperately fight to ignore.

Shit. That explains a lot.

I like to think I was there...

2009-09-21T19:58:00.002-04:00

I like to dance all night, summons the day
But that's how I play, yeah that's how I play
I said who are you? Don't matter who you are
So we dance all night and dance all day

I say, I say

We're gonna fuel th fire, gonna stoke it up
We're gonna sip this wine and pass the cup
Who needs avenues, who needs reservoirs
Gonna show this town how to kiss these stars

I sayyyyy, I saayyy (insert my improvisation- major third above)
(ahhhh sexy guitaarrr <3)

We're gunna hunt to kill, gonna skin the hide
A yelp and scream and away I ride
And every drop that spills on every plot of ground
It's all for you for what you found

I saaaaayyyy (jamm that shizzz.. love his voice)

It's gonna take your head
And gonna drive you home
It's gonna keep on, keep on, keep on
And then forever roam

My Broke Ass..Bought Me Some Shoesss =)

2009-09-20T19:31:00.001-04:00

HA!

Who can resist a freakin sale? ..*shakes her head*.. I know I can't =(

But whooa so I try on these shoes cuz they look kinda cute and interesting. The colour is nothing like I've ever seen before! (it's a navy blue with hint of grey) And must I mention that they are high as a mothfka.. but comfortable as heck! And if they're gunna be high ..they must, must, must be comfy to walk in! They are also covered in some good quality leather inside and out.. beautiful!

Aneways, I flip them on the under side to check out the price.. and I almost had a heart attack.

$350.00 is what it read

I proceeded to place them back on the shelf.. but I think the sales girl saw my sadness (lol).. and she approached me saying they were in the process of marking them down.

I went to the cash register.. and got them for $90.00! Sweet deal! Oh I also bought some Givenchy pantyhose.. because I can... and only $10.. Nelson plz don't kill me! :$

The Frye Company :O

For the BSc. Graduate

2009-09-17T12:46:00.004-04:00

Don't be so glum cuz it's getting boring..

you're not the only one that has it tough in this world.

I know, I noticed it too..

that you can never do what you want.

I know, I am trapped in this life too..

we always "have" to do everything nowadays.

We can't "want" to do anything anymore..

and what we "have" to do, we are tricked into thinkng we "want" to do.

Don't worry though,

when this fight with the "have to" is over.. we will reign and shine!

This fight is worth fighting.. and it'll be over soon.

Just work, and you better work hard..

cuz when it's over.. it's gunna be so darn good.

Conversing with the Opposite Sex

2009-09-11T22:26:00.005-04:00

"Hey Bobby, How was your day?"

-"Good"

"But Bobby, what did you do today?"

-"Same old"

"Oh ok.. but this is all new to you, Bobby"

-"Ye, I'm just chillen"

"Oh ok.. I'll let you chill"

..30 quiet mins later..

"Bobby, when is the best time we can talk?"

-"You can talk to me whenever you want, I'll always answer"

"But we're not talking.. you're not telling me anything"

-"I cut my finger"

"WTF! I guess that falls into the 'I had a good day' category. How the eff don't you feel the need to say these things"

-"I was yelling at George"

..10 mins later..

"... and?"

-"and?"

"UGH! and what happened? ..You were yelling at George so he cut your finger?"

-"I was slicing a cucumber"

" UGH!!.. forget I ever tried"

Resurrection of Rock 'n Roll

2009-09-10T00:34:00.002-04:00

Kings of Leon

...

2009-09-10T00:08:00.002-04:00

His voice, so monotone and shallow, can not find the depth nor the right touch to paint his vivid and colourful pictures to her.

"I'm tired", he says.

He gives up.

Wake Me Up when September Ends

2009-09-09T23:57:00.002-04:00

So the school year has begun.. woohoo or booho for some!

I'm just chillen, finally able to get some real rest and enjoy my extended vacation.
Extended because I'm only goin back to school in January.
So till then, I have some things I need to focus on.

I love change. I love getting on board and opting for new things.
But no matter how spontaneous this sounds, or how spontaneous I make it sound, I carefully plan everything. I do get excited easily and I do cary things over the top sometimes =) Life is short, I'm glad of every free moment I gain.

I have planned to pick up my french, earn extra points in piano (by continuing it a little longer), and expand my guitar knowledge.. this includes building my musical creativity a little more.

Some time to pick up my hobbies and interests.. to truly express.

Zexy time galore!

Augie

...

2009-08-25T21:34:00.003-04:00

She smiles a soft smile and tells him with her heart on a string,

"Don't worry about me. I'm used to you leaving me all the time".

My Place

2009-08-25T21:09:00.006-04:00

A place she can call her own..
She has a home, yes,
but she wants to be connected to the earth.
She doesn't just want to walk carelessly on it or take advantage of it.
She wants to feel, to breathe, and to see it.
She wants to hold in her mind a vision
so she can have a taste of what she will be fighting for.

She needs this connection, this place, to ground her.
To remind her to stay alive
in case she forgets who she is and who she is yet to become.
And as she searched vast distances for those beautiful images of the world to fill her mind..
she settled on the one closest to home.

A place that satisfied the city-girl and nature-girl in her.
It bent both ways to represent her desire to be in the city jungle
and her natural drive to be outdoors.
She found it.. her escape.. a place to clear her over-complex mind
and to let go all the worries that clouded her goals.
Here she is herself and not anything is held back from her feeling so.

A place, my place now ,
is where I go gladly to overrun all the chaios in my life..

I'm glad I found what I was looking for:

Peace

Twilight Saga P.2

2009-08-25T20:59:00.003-04:00

So I completely finished reading the Twilight Saga series..
and as I re-read my blog post about the first book there are a few changes I need to make.

I still hold that the books are not written exceptionally well (there are a few parts of the books that are rushed by the author.. very unprofessional) but the final three books of the Twilight Saga are better than the first.

I say that because Bella, who pissed me off in the first book, grows into a more tolerable being (lol).. and her love twist with the new character, Jacob, is something I somewhat related to. That part very much held my attention to the book.

Overall, the vampire love story captures you with an anticipation for the truth... and a desire for a happy ending.

I give Twilight Saga an 8.95/10 (lol).

This is the link to read it all online (including the unpublished Midnight Sun):
http://read-twilight.blogspot.com/

My 411 on Twilight

2009-08-19T16:53:00.003-04:00

Because curiosity got to me..
I started reading Twilight.. and I must say I am part impressed and part dissapointed.

I am super impressed with the idea of a sexy vampire crazy attracted to a normal, ivory skinned girl. The imagination that this book leaves you with just drives you insane. You start putting urself in Bella's position.. start fantasizing.. lol. But that's only because of Edward.

The character of Edward is the ideal guy any girl would want to be with. He protects a girl, he fights for her, he spends almost all his time with her.. tells her the most sweetest yet bizzare things... AND he has eyes and a thirst/craving only for her. Shall I add that he is incredibly handsome and has a dangerous/mysterious side to him which brings spontaneity to the relationship. He definately challenges love vs. lust.. overall YUM!

Bella on the other hand- not so much of a yum. I tried to understand her.. but I failed. After reading the first book I felt like kicking her. At first it seemed she was this cool, reserved girl.. and I actually felt jealous she had this hot vampire stalking her. I get it. But then.. she argued with this sexy guy continuously about stupid shit. Get over urself..and enjoy being with him.. and for heaven sake SMILE! Her thoughts and feelings are all so depresseive. Like damn girl.. I don't get you.. I wouldn't wanna be with this depressing chick. Then she turns super obsessive and it got so ridiculously annoying...

Chapter 17- Edward I'm scared of losing you. I love you.
Chapter 18- Edward stay with me. I need you here.
Chapter 19- Edward promise me you'll never leave me. Stay the night. Don't let go of me.
Chapter 20- Edward I love you. I'm scared you could disappear.. tell me you love me. Tell me you'll never leave.

FU*K GIRL! He's gunna leave you cuz yuuuu soo CRAZY!

The other dissapointment, outside of Bella, is the fact that the book isn't beautifully written or netn. It's just a literary 'blah'. I prefer Jane Austen; at least it wasn't ridiculously cheezy.

Aneways.. here's a picture of Edward. Cuz the success of this book is all thx to him!

B.E.P. Party All the Time

2009-08-06T22:59:00.001-04:00

so DAvid Guetta!

my life would beee eassssssaaayyyy if we could party all night and sleep all day!

How to write Essays..

2009-08-06T12:16:00.002-04:00

1. Get organized
--> put a piece of paper and a pen on your desk beside your lap top

2. Open your books
--> it looks pretty this way

3. Turn on the lap top
--> the light gives you energy

4. WAIT
--> wait around and browse the web until inspiration hits you

It took me one season of Mad Men, and the movies The Ugly Truth and Orphan, to write this essay. I shouldn't mention all these random blog posts and Twitter msgs lol.

BUT I am finally done! yay me :)

Thnx Weather Man!

2009-08-06T12:02:00.003-04:00

I feel u heard my plea.. plz keep the sun rays coming..

I'm ignorning your latest prediciton in hopes it will NOT rain over the weekend and the following week!

I think you might've misread your script on tv :)

Besides, you're usually wrong half the time you stare at that big map of fortune!

I'm Such a Summer Hypocrite!

2009-08-05T00:44:00.003-04:00

... cuz its been so unfair this year! lol I hate it!

BUT I do love this cartoon!!

This made me laugh.. oh that clever M. de Adder! gotta love Metro ;P

I Walk..Away

2009-08-05T00:17:00.006-04:00

Dear Summer,

Since June I've been reckless.. A couple of days of sunshine followed by 5 days of rain..

(you're so cute the way you tease me)

But seriously now, Summer where are you? How could you leave me in such despair?

I can't take anymore of this!! What did I ever do to you but enjoy your beautiful rays!

It's the Recession, isn't it?

Well, EFFF YOU! You and your effin white, puffy clouds, and all your little colourful flowers and birds!

Politics has nutn to do with this, u sonofabytch! You coward! You sheep!

I know you're there! You can't ignore me! Come out and settle this with me woman to woman!

I invite you for a lovely cup of tea, my house, noon. I will wait for you with my sunglasses on and my make up off!

Forever faithful,

Augie

Nail Polish

2009-08-05T00:07:00.006-04:00

If the summer won't come to you..

GIVE IT THE FINGER!

A beautiful and fun, colourful finger! lol

These are my Summer 2009 finger polish obsessions!

Yellow banana (Forever 21, 4.50$), Black Current (Maybelline, 3.50$), Light Pink and Peach (Sally Hansen- Hard as Nails.. priceless)!!

Freestylah.. mmm old school ;p

2009-07-29T11:45:00.000-04:00

A Long Drive Home

2009-07-27T00:03:00.005-04:00

The image before me is slowly gaining momentum..
a force I hold on to as I drive over the slightly sloped pavement.
There it is.. the climax.. the sunset.. a strong image to entake..
But as I drive on, it is lost in the vision that was time.

I feel the wind through my hair and the warmth of its whisper on my face.
Slow rolling.. a calendar encircling the earth.. and I know I am alive.
And I feel the earth is alive with me.

Closet Makeover!

2009-07-20T18:19:00.002-04:00

Ahhh finally a neat organized closet!!

The Closet Before the makeover: (ugh it's soo friggin messy)

Cleaning out the closet was the hardest part.. here's another angle:

The New Closet:

Shirts, Dresses, Pants, Shoes.. all organized..love it!

Graduate!

2009-07-08T23:49:00.002-04:00

Congrats to Nelson for graduating from York University (BA Hnrs. Geography, Magna com Laude)!!

P.S~
we've been meaning to geocache for the longeessstt time! (I think the last time we updated was beginning of spring).. but life got in the way.. and a thing called money and paying for the Geocache Program itself got in the way as well. There is a fee of around 20$ we have to pay monthly to continue on our quest around the city (or world).. our free trial already expired lol. Soon though.. I promise! because geocaching is just so darn fun lol =)

I am the Hammer!

2009-07-08T23:31:00.003-04:00

..not the nail!

So my mother left for a vaycay to Poland for about a month.. meaning I have to cook/clean and actually run the house while she is gone.
Now I know why she so eagerly left her comfortable home ... all the ppl in this house r difficult! Well, at least 1/3 are normal.. ME =) haha. I joke.
So my chores so far have been to prepare meals for myself (at this I laugh cuz I eat so irregularly) and dinner for my dad (which I don't mind doing).. oh and walking the dog full-time. Also, I am responsible for all the groceries and laundry (gasp!). I think I'm gunna call my bf for the laundry bit lol.. and then maybe I'll grocery shop online.. LOL jks. I like grocery shopping =) makes me feel all mature n in control haha.. Especially going to Costco!! the shopping is so pleasurable there b/c of all the free food samples ;) oh, and everything there is bigger and cheaper =) SCORE! I love good deals ;)
Don't I sound like I have a pretty good handle on things?
HA! it's only been two days! Twenty more days to go!
My dad n I get along sooo welllll tho. I usually wake up early, walk the dog, n go to work. He gets up later.. feeds the dog. Then I come home, I cook something, walk/feed the dog again and go out. He comes home eats.. tells me to walk the dog again. Then we either ..A) go somewhere, like Home Depot (cuz we both obsess over that store and have several house-projects in mind), or B) watch movies that we've seen billions of times (like Casino Royal, 88 Minutes, Valkyrie) until midnight (and until we memorized every line in the movie).. and that concludes the day. lol.

I am also dying to share all the neat things I bought.. mostly hair masks/brushes/protein mists lol.. but I also bought these Chanel runners.. and a small Coach wristlet!! (faux, of course) =P maybe I'll mention that in a later post!

Anewho cheers!.. to warmer and sunnier days!

Telepopmusik <3

2009-07-08T22:49:00.002-04:00

LOVE this shizzz! =D
so refreshing!

Street Lights

2009-06-29T07:32:00.005-04:00

Let me know
Do I still got time to grow?
Things ain't always set in stone
That being known let me know
Let me

Seems like street lights glowing
Happen to be just like moments passing in front of me
So I hopped in the cab and
I paid my fares
See I know my destination
But I'm just not there

Uneasy

2009-06-29T07:16:00.002-04:00

This morning,

something
something
something...

is making me uneasy.

I feel lazy, unfulfilled, tired.

I'm not ready to be who u want me to be..

I'm not ready to stay put.. its just not me.

...

2009-06-29T07:11:00.003-04:00

I'm an aunt for the second time this year =)
Congratulations to my cousin Marcin who has been blessed with Orys in February.
A second congratulations to my cousin Roma who gave birth to Weronika last week!

My cousins.. in total I have only 3.. are like my siblings! Being the baby of the family, I look up to them in every way! Congrats again.. love u all!